Tuesday, Feb. 10, 2015 at 12:50 a.m.
I don't always like cutting my relationships up and putting them under the microscope. Sometimes when anxiety overwhelms you, you have to.
Tonight a boy I went to uni with, Amit, he dated an acquaintance, and was roommates with a classmate, told me that he loves how emotionally expressive I am.
And guess what? I love that about my self too. I will not get over something until I let it out, and I usually do that in many ways. I love that I can cry things out.
Then I came across this quote that hit me where it hurts... It's all I want, but am I getting it?
My desires in a relationship have changed over time. I no longer want someone who promises to always love me and never leave me, I need someone who understands that life happens and sometimes things don’t work out. I don’t want someone who sugar coats things and never gets angry with me, I need someone to tell me how it really is and put me in my place. I need to be able to go five hours without talking to you and not feel lost or incomplete. I am complete without you. But with you, I want to be so much better. I want to be stronger with you. I want us to grow together and help each other grow individually. I don’t need you, but I really fucking want you. And this may not work out, but the fact that you understand all of this and this how our relationship works, makes me think we’ve got a pretty good shot.